YES!!

I did it! I booked the Husky doggie in EA's "The Littlest Pet Shop"!! I really wanted it and I was crossing my fingers AND I also found a heads up penny that I wished on yesterday, and see??? It totally works!! I record on Tuesday and cannot wait. The other super rad thing about all this is that I also have a session for MySims 3 the first week of March... yeay for work!!
Yesterday was my last class and it was really great. I decided to challenge myself and I went for the Irish dialect... I was nervous because a few other people in class did it as well- and one of my classmates was born and raised in Clare, so that added some more pressure. I've been exposed to many dialects from the Emerald Isle, so I was worried it would sound like a Cork/Donegal/Dublin mishmash. Turns out I have a pretty good Dublin dialect going, and now I just really want to work on it so I can add it to my resume with confidence.
It's Saturday night and I am thrilled to not have to get up at 6 until Wednesday! I'm just hanging out, being cozy at home. Just watched the ultra-uplifting film (ha ha), "The Magdalene Sisters". Rented it to listen to the dialect but didn't get to watch it before class... as depressing as it is, it amazes me that those "Laundries" were in operation until 1996. Those girls did nothing wrong, locked away by evil nuns, not even free to speak. It's amazing it went on that long. Catholicism can be some hardcore shit.

I really don't know what else to say... things are good. I've got Voice Acting work on the horizon and I'm not locked in an evil Irish Laundry. But if I were (and they let me speak) I could do a pretty good Dublin dialect!

heart on Hyde ♥

I took this picture with my crap phone today on my way downtown to an audition...
I love finding this random sweetness on streets that are usually covered with vomit, shit and piss!
The audition went well; it was for an EA game, "The Littlest Pet Shop" - I auditioned for a horse and a dog. haha...!!!! it was pretty funny when I heard the playback. haaa
I love my job!

I came home and took a nap.
That was lovely.

Felt strangely inspired and baked some brownies... this is a rare occurrence!
I know it was because tonight is Hell's Kitchen night... Hurrah for Gordon Ramsay, that hot prick of a bull dog lookalike with a heart of gold!!!
Anyway, HK nights are always fun. Drinking, smoking and good food.

I'm looking forward to a stormy weekend, catching up on movies and cable. oooh yes, I canceled my cable today. It's just too much money... sure was fun for awhile though. Life in general is just so fucking expensive, and I have been going out too much lately... I need to just chill in my space. So, only 2 more weeks of Celebrity Rehab Millionaire Matchmakers in Atlanta. I'm sure I will survive.

Tomorrow is my last class in a 6 week Advanced Character voice acting class. We have to do some sort of dialect, so I am going to become an ultra-posh English woman who is super uptight. I'm gonna over-enunciate that shit outta that script! That'll be fun, especially reading copy for Turbo Tax or Chevrolet! haaa

Anyway, lovely readers (Pablo) that is what's up with me. Simplifying and savoring the good shit is my goal these days. Saying "Yes" more than "No" but paying attention to my instincts.
Like the heart on Hyde, I'm paying attention to the small stuff, and making a note of it...these are the things that help you make it through the tough times.
Small moments add up to a lot more of the good shit!

Reflections on events I have yet to discuss

When I started this blog, I was really gonna write all the time.
You know how it is, big ideas- big plans- and life gets in the way.
Well not in the way... it just is.
But whatever. That doesn't matter now...
Let me (please) reflect upon the following events which I am now going to discuss with myself.

1. I have been taking some amazing Voice Acting classes lately that have been shaking me up and the stuff that is spewing out of me is shocking, frankly.
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Not bad, oh no.
Actually it has been quite good. You see, it seems that something finally clicked in my brain that evolved out and then this evolution provided me with the knowledge that I can do much more than I gave myself credit for. We're talking commercial copy here folks. I always seem to think of myself as a kid. "I play kids".
Well ya know, this is just a part of me. I am actually a woman! Can you believe that?
Yes, I am.
So. I have a new confidence reading car spots, public service announcements and even that medical stuff. I still have a ways to go, but I feel competitive for the first time. I'm gonna make sure I stay in Ladytown for awhile cuz it feels goooooood.

2. Last month I had a session at EA during Creative Camp, a week when all the super Sims fans come and play the new game and check out the place.
I was in the booth and I could see them all on the other side. I kinda felt like an animal at the zoo! It was so fun to see how excited they all were, and it just makes me feel amazing to be a part of something like this... I hope Sims 3 is super popular so I can keep this gig for at least a little longer... I know something so rad will not last forever, but I love it and will savor it as long as I can!
I also started recording a new MySims game and it's gonna be so adorable. Just wait!! ♥

3. I am really loving that I am back in the cafe at the hostel. I do not love waking up at 6, but once I get to work it is fine. I also do not love hostelers who don't do their own dishes. Please, I beg of you... if you stay in a hostel, do your dishes! My hands are thrashed! I do have a great time though, and everyday I leave work I really feel like I have connected with people in the world, not just in my bubble. It feels so good.

4. On Monday it will be a year since I got dumped.
I cannot believe, honestly, how much better I am now. Better than I have felt in years actually. Focusing on myself and what I want for my future has really changed things... I used to think that was kinda selfish, but now I know that I am a better person to others when I pay attention to what my brain is trying to tell me. I'm kind of a dumbass sometimes, I act like I don't really care and can be pretty hard on myself.
Since my trip last October ♥, I just want to take it easy, enjoy the moments and not let myself get caught up in stupid bullshit. Believe me, this is not easy...
My trip abroad showed me what I am capable of all on my own, and I am so glad I know this now!
I'm just very conscious of counting my blessings. I am so lucky to have amazing friends, both near and far, and I want to make sure I nurture these friendships because ... well last year was fucking hard, and I had a lot of support. I think people were more worried about me than they said at the time, and I am thankful that they stuck with me.

5. On March 16 it will be four years since I lost my Dad. Just last Sunday, February 8, he would've turned 65.
You know when you're a kid, and you feel like you'll have your parents forever... but then you start getting older - growing up- and things start happening to your friend's parents. You start to realize mortality, and it sucks.
My Dad will always be in my heart, he supported me in everything I ever dreamt of. I cannot tell you how lucky this makes me feel. He will always be my Daddy.

The last 5 years of my life have really established some serious adult cred for me...
✶I lived in NYC
✶lost a parent
✶stayed with my Mom when she had brain surgery (she is so good now, just like before)
✶got dumped.

ugh!
The NYC part was amazing ( i think it helped prepare me for what was to come...), and while the rest of the stuff made me wonder how I could move on, I have!
Somehow I feel like this year mark of the dumpage has ended a whole lotta bad and I am ready for a whole lotta good.
As much as I believe Valentine's Day to be bullshit (when you're alone it makes you feel like you suck) ... I am, at heart, very sentimental and too romantic for my own good...
and ready for newness. I still have high aspirations for love with a normal guy (what is normal?) (not an addict or an actor! i knooow, harsh.). I do get down about it, but deep down I believe it's possible.

For the moment though, I will keep moving forward, write blogs when I feel inspired, and hang out with people who make my heart and brain happy.

Happy Valentine's Day everyone!