hello fog, i love you ♥

A view from the top

Relaxing weekend... just back from Oakland and the really stuffy BART... now on the breezy Cable Car, home again.
Hanging out with Shawna and Kat last night was wonderful. Delicious dinner, conversation ranging from laughter to tears, and a bit of alcohol all equaled a lovely evening.
Sitting on their balcony this morning, drinking tea and watching the world go by, feeling warm and relaxed was the antidote for a shit week.
Sometimes I forget how good it feels to just stop, breathe and sit in the sun.

I stepped out for a burrito and was embraced by the mist ♥

Foggy night in the PolkSac.

Mmm... tomatoey

It's really rare for me to go out to lunch, but today was a special day. Presenting: Heirloom Tomato salad at The Creamery... Yummy & beautiful.

my morning corner

It's a beautiful morning in the TL!

You're only as old as you feel, right?

Tomorrow is my birthday... it feels like a big one. It's called the "late 30's". Really late.
(gulp)
I never thought much about how I would be when I got older.
I never thought I'd be married or have kids, I always kinda knew I'd be doing my own thing.
I never thought I'd be an actor. Shit, I never thought I'd be doing anything having to do with performing.
Never say never, I guess. At least about the acting stuff.
I'm feeling pretty reflective and also just wishing sometimes that I were more of a "real adult".
As in:
Having enough money to pay bills and be social
Not letting the "J Crew couples" brimming with happiness make me feel like a loser for being single
Feeling like I know what I'm doing in general!

I guess that's kinda it (haha)... and as I was typing this I realized that these things are fixable... I need to change my finances in a major way, and that means I need a different day job. I can do this.
As for the "Happy J Crew couples".... it's all bullshit anyway, isn't it?
Truthfully though- does anyone really know what they're doing?
Am I just being too hard on myself? (cuz I never do that....)

Tomorrow at a bit half past 2, I will be 38.
(deep breath)
I'm a late bloomer. It makes me crazy! I think when I turn 40 (omg) I'll be so ready for the world.
The growing pains are totally kicking my ass right now. I'm so over it!!!!!
I don't want to let the number get to me... that's all it is.
Most people think I'm in my late 20's anyway, and truth be told, I feel like I am in a lot of ways.

Tomorrow I'm gonna party like I'm turning 28, with all the wisdom of being 38.